So I know it's been a while since I've blogged, I keep having these little bursts where I will suddenly post every day and then it's hit and miss again, but here goes for starting the trend again. Sadly though the trend is restarting because of a severe case of creative block.
We are planning a promo tour again, this time a couple of weeks in the greater Vancouver area, going to Christian schools.
It's a great time, and always fun to talk to the kids and hear all their ideas and dreams and know that not all that long ago I was thinking the same things.
I hate feeling like this, the sun is out and I'm in the office, I am here by myself right now, and the cement walls are cold, my injured foot is aching, and I can't seem to focus. Wow, whinge somemore Hillary....
I think the thing is often that I feel insecure, and so want help, but then am too proud to ask for help, knowing that the people I can ask are all obviously better than me at EVERYTHING and therefore feeding all the crappy insecurity lies that are spinning in my head. Wow, convoluted huh.
On happier things, Mark and I have been going to the gym now for just over 5 weeks, 3 times a week, for about 1 1/2-2 hours at a time. Some days we would throw in a bit of jogging/rugby ball stuff, but mostly we just go, plug in our iPods and let the sweat flow. I'm doing a lot of cardio stuff, where Mark is doing 90% weights to bulk up for rugby, and so we don't really see much of each other while we are there, but it's been good for us. The discouraging thing at the moment is that while I am feeling a lot healthier (my insane skeleton shaking cough is gone) and am sleeping well and eating really well, according to my 1500calories a day plan, and yet I'm still not seeing the 'wow i am happy i feel and look skinnier' results that i want. i know i should be patient, but i think it's just been one of those days. Gah.
The strange thing is how quickly anxiety can turn into relaxation and vice versa in a few short hours.
It was my birthday on Sunday (wow 24 already) my third birthday on Canadian shores, and it's hard to believe that all that time has already gone past, and looking back at what has happened, it's been a very full three years.
Mark took me away for a long weekend, to a small town called Kelowna, in the Okanagan Valley, about 4 hours drive from here. Was the most relaxed and rested and taken care of that I've felt in a very very long time. We had a great time. Thanks for being amazing Mark. I love you!
Ok, back to work, maybe when I actually get this video done, I'll post it on here and you can all give me some feedback. That would be helpful I think.
Here's to being happier tonight.....
