Late night confessions

so it's nearly 1am and I am sitting up, eating nutella, watching reruns of greys anatomy.

Like actually eating nutella and strawberries at nearly 1 in the morning.

I'm sad

And I'm sad that I am making dumb choices, and not sleeping, and while I'm excited and nervous and scared and happy, i'm also sleepy and moody and slightly sick from a nutella rush.

This is the life I've chosen. Saying goodbyes, coming and going, never quite knowing who I will see and when.  It's tiring, and while it's beautiful, it's sickening too.

And I've seen all these episodes of Greys before.  And I have to stop eating nutella.

I'm not sure where to go from here.  

24 days now.  And i'm going to get fatter on nutella and my eyes are going to be red from now until the wedding from crying.  Sigh.

Night.

Where did the time go

So it's the 9th of June and the whirlwind is upon us......the nubmer of countdowns I have spinning in my head are ridiculous......

• 2 days til Mark's wedding ring arrives
• 5 days til Mum arrives from New Zealand
• 9 days til Sara arrives from New Zealand
• 25 days til the wedding and becoming Mrs Mark Bergshoeff
• 29 days til we fly to Ontario
• 54 days til we leave for Costa Rica

Wow

I'm kinda spinning just typing that.

It's been a crazy awesome time. I've officially been living in our new apartment for 10 days now, and it's finally looking more like a home and less like a crash site.  It feels like home though (which i suppose is the important thing) and I still get little butterflies when I walk in the door and realise that this is going to be our first home together as a married couple. Gulp.

The painting is all done, the internet works, 90% of the boxes are unpackes, and life goes on.

My newest word of the moment was taught to me by Mark yesterday.  

cur·mudg·eon  (kr-mjn)

n.

An ill-tempered person full of resentment and stubborn notions.

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[Origin unknown.]

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cur·mudgeon·ly adj.

cur·mudgeon·ry n.

 Not bad huh

Ok what else

I should probably be getting ready for work.  If you haven't RSVPd already for the wedding, get onto it friends! www.markandhill.com  If you haven't got your invite and think you should have I lost a box of invites in the move meaning that I have now sent some people two invitations and some people NONE! so let me know if you're really worried......