Well it may have taken me the entire first half of the year, but I have finally finished my newsletter.
If you want to receive it and haven't then flick me an email, or post a comment on here with your email address.
Much love, Hillary
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Creativity...
So I know it's been a while since I've blogged, I keep having these little bursts where I will suddenly post every day and then it's hit and miss again, but here goes for starting the trend again. Sadly though the trend is restarting because of a severe case of creative block.
We are planning a promo tour again, this time a couple of weeks in the greater Vancouver area, going to Christian schools.
It's a great time, and always fun to talk to the kids and hear all their ideas and dreams and know that not all that long ago I was thinking the same things.
I hate feeling like this, the sun is out and I'm in the office, I am here by myself right now, and the cement walls are cold, my injured foot is aching, and I can't seem to focus. Wow, whinge somemore Hillary....
I think the thing is often that I feel insecure, and so want help, but then am too proud to ask for help, knowing that the people I can ask are all obviously better than me at EVERYTHING and therefore feeding all the crappy insecurity lies that are spinning in my head. Wow, convoluted huh.
On happier things, Mark and I have been going to the gym now for just over 5 weeks, 3 times a week, for about 1 1/2-2 hours at a time. Some days we would throw in a bit of jogging/rugby ball stuff, but mostly we just go, plug in our iPods and let the sweat flow. I'm doing a lot of cardio stuff, where Mark is doing 90% weights to bulk up for rugby, and so we don't really see much of each other while we are there, but it's been good for us. The discouraging thing at the moment is that while I am feeling a lot healthier (my insane skeleton shaking cough is gone) and am sleeping well and eating really well, according to my 1500calories a day plan, and yet I'm still not seeing the 'wow i am happy i feel and look skinnier' results that i want. i know i should be patient, but i think it's just been one of those days. Gah.
The strange thing is how quickly anxiety can turn into relaxation and vice versa in a few short hours.
It was my birthday on Sunday (wow 24 already) my third birthday on Canadian shores, and it's hard to believe that all that time has already gone past, and looking back at what has happened, it's been a very full three years.
Mark took me away for a long weekend, to a small town called Kelowna, in the Okanagan Valley, about 4 hours drive from here. Was the most relaxed and rested and taken care of that I've felt in a very very long time. We had a great time. Thanks for being amazing Mark. I love you!
Ok, back to work, maybe when I actually get this video done, I'll post it on here and you can all give me some feedback. That would be helpful I think.
Here's to being happier tonight.....
We are planning a promo tour again, this time a couple of weeks in the greater Vancouver area, going to Christian schools.
It's a great time, and always fun to talk to the kids and hear all their ideas and dreams and know that not all that long ago I was thinking the same things.
I hate feeling like this, the sun is out and I'm in the office, I am here by myself right now, and the cement walls are cold, my injured foot is aching, and I can't seem to focus. Wow, whinge somemore Hillary....
I think the thing is often that I feel insecure, and so want help, but then am too proud to ask for help, knowing that the people I can ask are all obviously better than me at EVERYTHING and therefore feeding all the crappy insecurity lies that are spinning in my head. Wow, convoluted huh.
On happier things, Mark and I have been going to the gym now for just over 5 weeks, 3 times a week, for about 1 1/2-2 hours at a time. Some days we would throw in a bit of jogging/rugby ball stuff, but mostly we just go, plug in our iPods and let the sweat flow. I'm doing a lot of cardio stuff, where Mark is doing 90% weights to bulk up for rugby, and so we don't really see much of each other while we are there, but it's been good for us. The discouraging thing at the moment is that while I am feeling a lot healthier (my insane skeleton shaking cough is gone) and am sleeping well and eating really well, according to my 1500calories a day plan, and yet I'm still not seeing the 'wow i am happy i feel and look skinnier' results that i want. i know i should be patient, but i think it's just been one of those days. Gah.
The strange thing is how quickly anxiety can turn into relaxation and vice versa in a few short hours.
It was my birthday on Sunday (wow 24 already) my third birthday on Canadian shores, and it's hard to believe that all that time has already gone past, and looking back at what has happened, it's been a very full three years.
Mark took me away for a long weekend, to a small town called Kelowna, in the Okanagan Valley, about 4 hours drive from here. Was the most relaxed and rested and taken care of that I've felt in a very very long time. We had a great time. Thanks for being amazing Mark. I love you!
Ok, back to work, maybe when I actually get this video done, I'll post it on here and you can all give me some feedback. That would be helpful I think.
Here's to being happier tonight.....
Monday, March 31, 2008
The thing with advice...
So the thing with advice is that you don't want to accept the good stuff, because it almost always hurts, and it usually means that something has to change. I am ok with change. Though it's a challenge. Like building character and losing weight, it takes time and effort.
Oscar Wilde put it, 'you should always pass on good advice, it's the only sensible thing to do with it', and in another play Mrs Cheavley chided someone for giving her advice, saying 'you should never give a woman anything she can't wear in the evening.' But then, that's just silly isn't it.
Sometime though you have to work through things, make the mistakes, hear the advice, ignore some of it, try things out and just learn the hard way. And yet, advice from a friend, the word of a sage, the suggestion of a parental type or the hug of a caring boyfriend, can just make those decisions and thoughts a little easier.
All this to say I listened to a song from my past today, almost entirely made up of pieces of advice, things the writer wanted to tell us, the class of 1999.
Oscar Wilde put it, 'you should always pass on good advice, it's the only sensible thing to do with it', and in another play Mrs Cheavley chided someone for giving her advice, saying 'you should never give a woman anything she can't wear in the evening.' But then, that's just silly isn't it.
Sometime though you have to work through things, make the mistakes, hear the advice, ignore some of it, try things out and just learn the hard way. And yet, advice from a friend, the word of a sage, the suggestion of a parental type or the hug of a caring boyfriend, can just make those decisions and thoughts a little easier.
All this to say I listened to a song from my past today, almost entirely made up of pieces of advice, things the writer wanted to tell us, the class of 1999.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.
Floss
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own..
Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
(Brother and sister together we'll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting, and I know I've been waiting to be there
for you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody's free.)
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen…
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.
Floss
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own..
Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
(Brother and sister together we'll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting, and I know I've been waiting to be there
for you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody's free.)
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen…
Friday, March 28, 2008
Music for the heartstrings
So I don't know what your thoughts are on music downloads, intellectual property rights, copyrights, or any of that, and I'm not really feeling like opening a debate right now given I have a fairly rhythmic headache at the moment, but I thought I'd draw your attention to a website, and dedicate my playlist of the day to all of you out there, a soundtrack for my tired head and pensive heart.
www.seeqpod.com is a little website I was introduced to yesterday, and it really is quite lovely. Since reformatting my dear lappy 'Marvin' and rechristening 'Ernie' I haven't had a chance to put any of my music back on my computer and the lack of musical accompaniment in my life has been taking it's toll. And now, there's Seeqpod. It's a searchable database of songs, where you can log in for free (very simple 5 line form) and then you can search songs, create and save playlists, and listen to the songs online. It's not completely full proof, I couldn't find my favourite J-Pop classic Shizuka Na Hibi No Kaidan Wo but, then again, maybe that's asking a little too much.
So below is the playlist of songs that I've been working to, enjoy.
Love, Hillary
SeeqPod - Playable Search
www.seeqpod.com is a little website I was introduced to yesterday, and it really is quite lovely. Since reformatting my dear lappy 'Marvin' and rechristening 'Ernie' I haven't had a chance to put any of my music back on my computer and the lack of musical accompaniment in my life has been taking it's toll. And now, there's Seeqpod. It's a searchable database of songs, where you can log in for free (very simple 5 line form) and then you can search songs, create and save playlists, and listen to the songs online. It's not completely full proof, I couldn't find my favourite J-Pop classic Shizuka Na Hibi No Kaidan Wo but, then again, maybe that's asking a little too much.
So below is the playlist of songs that I've been working to, enjoy.
Love, Hillary
SeeqPod - Playable Search
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Sigh......Vancouver
So now that I have opened the valve of blogging thoughts, it's now beginning to make my fingers twitch on a regular basis towards my bookmark for blogger, and I'm feeling the urge to write more to my hopefully still faithful readers.
Thanks for the comment Philip. I'm glad someone still reads this.
Today has been interesting. I really feel like I'm leading a double life sometimes. I have two halves of me that live in tension, feeding off one another, and growing together, but never quite syncing to make me complete. Two very distinct halves that have forgotten how to interact completely. Why is that?
I was reading a couple of other blogs today, and have borrowed the following video from my amazing Mark's blog and can't help but share his joy in marveling at this little piece of our beautiful Vancouver online. It's a sweet reminder on an otherwise slow and blustery day of the amazing place I am fortunate enough to live in, and how much I am sure that my life is here, even if I'm not always sure of what that life will always look like.
I'm going to start remodeling this blog, and update links and stuff, and hopefully even work out a way of posting my newsletters! woah. Maybe. We'll see.
Enjoy my lovely city for today...
Thanks for the comment Philip. I'm glad someone still reads this.
Today has been interesting. I really feel like I'm leading a double life sometimes. I have two halves of me that live in tension, feeding off one another, and growing together, but never quite syncing to make me complete. Two very distinct halves that have forgotten how to interact completely. Why is that?
I was reading a couple of other blogs today, and have borrowed the following video from my amazing Mark's blog and can't help but share his joy in marveling at this little piece of our beautiful Vancouver online. It's a sweet reminder on an otherwise slow and blustery day of the amazing place I am fortunate enough to live in, and how much I am sure that my life is here, even if I'm not always sure of what that life will always look like.
I'm going to start remodeling this blog, and update links and stuff, and hopefully even work out a way of posting my newsletters! woah. Maybe. We'll see.
Enjoy my lovely city for today...
Love
Hillary
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
2008.....really?
So I know it's terrible that my last post was well back in December, and it's already March, but I'm going to turn over a new leaf and start again.
My computer is rendering, meaning that it's kinda hard for me to do much else right now, so here goes.
To summarise and get you up to speed again...
I will be updating this more regularly, maybe by marking on my calendar and BLOGDAY you know, like tuesday or wednesday, to make sure i'm more regular.
We'll see....
Here's some pics of life back in Vancouver now, for NZ pics, check out Facebook.
Love
Hillary
Stu, Jacqui, Melissa, Thomas and Mark and I all eating our faces off at Memphis Blues
Mark, his cousin Jen and me all at Canada Place when she came to visit
My computer is rendering, meaning that it's kinda hard for me to do much else right now, so here goes.
To summarise and get you up to speed again...
- I am back in Vancouver after 2 months in NZ.
- I am back in YWAM Vancouver, tying up a lot of loose ends, aiming to be running, full steam ahead by April.
- I am still living in the same beautiful house, with my beautiful mishmash house family, trying to keep on keeping on living and learning together.
- I am trying to make some big decisions about what is going to be coming up next.
I will be updating this more regularly, maybe by marking on my calendar and BLOGDAY you know, like tuesday or wednesday, to make sure i'm more regular.
We'll see....
Here's some pics of life back in Vancouver now, for NZ pics, check out Facebook.
Love
Hillary
Stu, Jacqui, Melissa, Thomas and Mark and I all eating our faces off at Memphis Blues
Mark, his cousin Jen and me all at Canada Place when she came to visit
Saturday, December 22, 2007
And it's actually happening...
After months of "planning" it's actually happening and we are getting on the bus in a little over three hours.
I'm a little wired, my hands are shaking a bit from lack of sleep, but I'm excited now that I know I've signed off on work and done what I need to do and now I'm ready to go.
I have a bad feeling though, (though it's probably exhaustion paranoia) so if it come to mind, please pray for us as we travel. For our bags, for good border crossings, for nice people along the way and for a good, fun time for the two of us.
Yipes, next post from Ontario!
Love you lots like jelly tots
Hill
I'm a little wired, my hands are shaking a bit from lack of sleep, but I'm excited now that I know I've signed off on work and done what I need to do and now I'm ready to go.
I have a bad feeling though, (though it's probably exhaustion paranoia) so if it come to mind, please pray for us as we travel. For our bags, for good border crossings, for nice people along the way and for a good, fun time for the two of us.
Yipes, next post from Ontario!
Love you lots like jelly tots
Hill
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
It's that time again
So my last post started out "In a month I'll be in Ontario"
Now I'm amazed to say that I'm going to be in Ontario in less than 5 days! And in NEW ZEALAND in LESS THAN 15 days!!!!!
I can't really even believe it and while I'm alternating between really really excited and a "little bit" stressed, I know overall that it's going to be a great two months ahead.
A big part of this two months is also going to be seeing supporters and friends and people who have really been walking through this last 18 months with me, and as part of that I have new pictures for my Christmas cards!
So as a sneak preview, here you go!
Love you
And see you soon!
Now I'm amazed to say that I'm going to be in Ontario in less than 5 days! And in NEW ZEALAND in LESS THAN 15 days!!!!!
I can't really even believe it and while I'm alternating between really really excited and a "little bit" stressed, I know overall that it's going to be a great two months ahead.
A big part of this two months is also going to be seeing supporters and friends and people who have really been walking through this last 18 months with me, and as part of that I have new pictures for my Christmas cards!
So as a sneak preview, here you go!
Love you
And see you soon!
Saturday, November 24, 2007
It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas...
So in a month I'll be in Ontario.
And a week after that I'll be in Auckland.
My how time flies.
There has been a lot of talk about Christmas around here recently, and a lot of talk particularly about Christmas food and Christmas movies.
Now I've never really thought intentionally about the "Christmas movie" but it appears that that has been a rather large oversight on my part.
Apparently there are loads of Christmas themed theatrical experiences that I have been missing out on, and my life is apparently not complete without.
So this Christmas, under the careful tutelage of my dear Mark I will be educated in the art of Christmas film. In preparation for that I am having an afternoon time out watching 'Love Actually' which now, given that we are classifying everything all the time, is my favourite Christmas movie. Amen
Also, I'm going to look for a recipe for Brandy snaps... mmmmmmm Christmas will be complete.
Life is going really well here at the moment, and while I wish I had new pictures to chow you, I sadly have not taken any. Again, oversight. We are going out tonight though, so I will try and remedy the situation and get some good pics for you to see.
Also, while we didn't win the most recent competition we entered we did make a really good video, and you can watch it on:
And a week after that I'll be in Auckland.
My how time flies.
There has been a lot of talk about Christmas around here recently, and a lot of talk particularly about Christmas food and Christmas movies.
Now I've never really thought intentionally about the "Christmas movie" but it appears that that has been a rather large oversight on my part.
Apparently there are loads of Christmas themed theatrical experiences that I have been missing out on, and my life is apparently not complete without.
So this Christmas, under the careful tutelage of my dear Mark I will be educated in the art of Christmas film. In preparation for that I am having an afternoon time out watching 'Love Actually' which now, given that we are classifying everything all the time, is my favourite Christmas movie. Amen
Also, I'm going to look for a recipe for Brandy snaps... mmmmmmm Christmas will be complete.
Life is going really well here at the moment, and while I wish I had new pictures to chow you, I sadly have not taken any. Again, oversight. We are going out tonight though, so I will try and remedy the situation and get some good pics for you to see.
Also, while we didn't win the most recent competition we entered we did make a really good video, and you can watch it on:
www.becausewecan.tv
I did a whole morning of filming today, helping on of the families on base with making a video letter to send to their supporters for Christmas, and it was really fun to be behind the camera again. I know I have been doing video stuff a lot in the last few months with because we can stuff, but at the same time, it's different (not better or worse, just different) to be doing a project by myself, and making something for someone, my way, with my skills. I love working with Mark and Leigh and Wade, and I really enjoy learning from them and doing what we do, being creative and being 'the girl' on the shoots, it can be a lot to take in and take on. So yeah, tired as I am right now, it's been a good day...plus I get to go on a date today so that makes it even better!
Ok, will follow up with pictures soon.
Love you
Ok, will follow up with pictures soon.
Love you
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Once a month... and tagged!
So I'm again posting once a month (does anyone even read this anymore....?) and Angela 'tagged' me, and since I've never been 'tagged' before, I figure I'll play along......
As many of you who know me know, I have 2 last names, so I took the easiest route and went with Rose... (much less letters to think of than the chinese name, which technically isn't letters at all......) so here goes...
R - Romantic - and I mean that in the fullest sense of that loaded word. Check it out on http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/romantic
I want to live a full and creative life, willing to "subordinate form to content" to emphasise emotion, capture the imagination, sing, laugh, live musically, create, bring life and colour, celebrate in the ordinary, to be fabulous, and love extravagantly.
O - Original and Open - Well at least that's what I'm shooting for.... I think I choose these words because I want to be original and open. I know God made me unique and special and without baggage and insecurity and fear, but sometimes I am scared that I'm really just a bit ordinary and quite a bit closed. And I'm scared that that will lead to boring. But as someone wise once said to me, I can choose not to let that happen. So here's to my best shot :)
S - Senses - I like to see, hear, taste, touch and smell my world, and I'm often driven by my reactions to those things, occasionally to my detriment ,when I'm overwhelmed with a feeling and don't think my reactions through entirely. But sometimes there's so much art and life and colour and love in a smell or a touch or a taste or a look that I can't resist it. And some senses surprise you, communication in sign instead of words or hearing someone come into a room by their scent, or tasting a memory in a foreign land.
E - Emotional - Again, not in a throw away 'oh you're so emotional' way, but more to say that I think I get through a lot of this life by feeling my way out, rather than always thinking the problem through or following a map. There's good and bad points to it, people have always said I have a big heart, and while to love deeply means to have the best memories and laughs and beautiful, I know it means that I've hurt deeply and cried much, and some days just felt sad or so angry I could knee cap someone (I'm sorry that I did that once, you know who you are, thank you for forgiving me...) But I'm learning that it's ok, and I'm incredibly blessed to have a lot of people around me who have cried with me, laughed with me, tickled me when I needed it and said that I didn't, write me amazing and beautiful words and who I know, even when I have my doubts, give me and take my love. Thank you.
So, four words and 30 minutes later it's time for bed.
I tag......Rebecca Joy, Krista Ann, Jacqui Brooke and Laura Rosalind.......
Love you much
As many of you who know me know, I have 2 last names, so I took the easiest route and went with Rose... (much less letters to think of than the chinese name, which technically isn't letters at all......) so here goes...
R - Romantic - and I mean that in the fullest sense of that loaded word. Check it out on http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/romantic
I want to live a full and creative life, willing to "subordinate form to content" to emphasise emotion, capture the imagination, sing, laugh, live musically, create, bring life and colour, celebrate in the ordinary, to be fabulous, and love extravagantly.
O - Original and Open - Well at least that's what I'm shooting for.... I think I choose these words because I want to be original and open. I know God made me unique and special and without baggage and insecurity and fear, but sometimes I am scared that I'm really just a bit ordinary and quite a bit closed. And I'm scared that that will lead to boring. But as someone wise once said to me, I can choose not to let that happen. So here's to my best shot :)
S - Senses - I like to see, hear, taste, touch and smell my world, and I'm often driven by my reactions to those things, occasionally to my detriment ,when I'm overwhelmed with a feeling and don't think my reactions through entirely. But sometimes there's so much art and life and colour and love in a smell or a touch or a taste or a look that I can't resist it. And some senses surprise you, communication in sign instead of words or hearing someone come into a room by their scent, or tasting a memory in a foreign land.
E - Emotional - Again, not in a throw away 'oh you're so emotional' way, but more to say that I think I get through a lot of this life by feeling my way out, rather than always thinking the problem through or following a map. There's good and bad points to it, people have always said I have a big heart, and while to love deeply means to have the best memories and laughs and beautiful, I know it means that I've hurt deeply and cried much, and some days just felt sad or so angry I could knee cap someone (I'm sorry that I did that once, you know who you are, thank you for forgiving me...) But I'm learning that it's ok, and I'm incredibly blessed to have a lot of people around me who have cried with me, laughed with me, tickled me when I needed it and said that I didn't, write me amazing and beautiful words and who I know, even when I have my doubts, give me and take my love. Thank you.
So, four words and 30 minutes later it's time for bed.
I tag......Rebecca Joy, Krista Ann, Jacqui Brooke and Laura Rosalind.......
Love you much
Thursday, October 11, 2007
videos and viruses
Ok, so no viruses that I know of yet, but it was a nice alliteration.
I have been feeling sick all night, and even though I have an amazing sweet wonderful man to help me forget how sick I'm feeling, now that I'm sitting here without him I feel kinda yucky again.
Hopefully I'll feel better by tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be busy tomorrow.
On the video front, I'm excited to report that we did well on the XLNT video competition and now you can watch our award winning videos on our wicked awesome video website
Oooooo and Jill is back in town! She is studying at Trinity Western University, so instead of being in Alberta and far far away from here, she is now close and we get to hang out lots. It's fun.
We went to see a hockey game last week. Our team lost badly unfortunately but it was still a fun night.
See, lots of fun...Mark and I having fun at the hockey......
And this is just Mark and I being Mark and I. Yup. Cute huh.
Anyways, I'm about to go to bed, I'm sleepy and sick.
Sigh
I have been feeling sick all night, and even though I have an amazing sweet wonderful man to help me forget how sick I'm feeling, now that I'm sitting here without him I feel kinda yucky again.
Hopefully I'll feel better by tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be busy tomorrow.
On the video front, I'm excited to report that we did well on the XLNT video competition and now you can watch our award winning videos on our wicked awesome video website
www.becausewecan.tv
In other news, it's been a good couple of weeks with the DTS, they are all so great, and so fun to be around, and I am really enjoying getting to know them. They are from all around the place, 22 different students from all around the world, all here to learn about God and missions and it's been really exciting to see that they are already changing. Even though it's only week 2.Our video making partner in crime, Leigh, his wife Angela, and our friends Ryan, Wade, Ralph, Nick, Aubrey and Jill all went to the very last Saturday of the Richmond night market. Lots and lots and LOTS of chinese video stalls, music stalls, and FOOD STALLS. My favourite part.
Spicy BBQ squid is your friend....
Spicy BBQ squid is your friend....
Oooooo and Jill is back in town! She is studying at Trinity Western University, so instead of being in Alberta and far far away from here, she is now close and we get to hang out lots. It's fun.
We went to see a hockey game last week. Our team lost badly unfortunately but it was still a fun night.See, lots of fun...Mark and I having fun at the hockey......
And this is just Mark and I being Mark and I. Yup. Cute huh.
Anyways, I'm about to go to bed, I'm sleepy and sick.
Sigh
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Another month.....
Since I'm so bad at posting, and I'm trying to edit another video, and I also just sent out a newsletter not that long ago, AND I am working on a new one, I figure I'll just post a couple of pics, and then link you to my dear roommate Rebecca's blog, because she has summarised our last 2 weeks far more eloquently then I could at midnight in the middle of all of this. Though she didn't include a picture of the finished product. I'll remedy that soon.
Love and cookies
Hillary
P.S. That's not as random as it sounds, I helped bake more than 200 cookies this afternoon. These DTS students don't realise just how lucky they are.....
Mark and I at Robson square...
Laura and I in Montana
and
Rebecca and I, post wedding party, in our pretty party clothes
Love and cookies
Hillary
P.S. That's not as random as it sounds, I helped bake more than 200 cookies this afternoon. These DTS students don't realise just how lucky they are.....
Mark and I at Robson square...
Laura and I in Montana
and
Rebecca and I, post wedding party, in our pretty party clothes
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Once a month posting
This is me as an M&M. Yup, I'm sooooo cute.
Anyways.
So much has happened and so much is going on. I'm going to write bullet points again.
Anyways.So much has happened and so much is going on. I'm going to write bullet points again.
- It's 5.40pm and I'm in my PJs. I was up ridiculously early, did some driving for some friends, then came home and realising the extent of my exhaustion (is it possible the summer is catching up on me?!?!) I decided to take a day off and rest. Just rest. And commune. And chill. It's good
- I'm going to Montana tomorrow with the other DTS staffers for an international DTS conference and training week. I'm excited for the trip, will be good to hang out, network, grow as a group and hear more about what is happening with short term teams being sent out through DTS here in Western North America
- I'm going to a birthday party tonight (not in my PJs) but I don't know what I'm going to wear.
- Leigh, Wade and I entered a video competition (check out www.utilikilt.com the Mockumercial 2007 competition form) and we came 2nd!!! There is a review and prize money and kilts and funness. How's that for a closing screen shot eh? It'll be up on the website eventually, so hopefully you can look at it. I'll keep you posted. What kind of kilt do you want Dad?
- We've finished a lot of the work we were doing for the summer program, and it was so great to be doing media and comms stuff again, let alone the video stuff. It's been soooooooo fun, and I'm really looking forward for doing more of the same this fall with the DTS.
- Mark had his birthday and we got a ridiculously large chocolately chocolate cake for the day. If you don't know who Mark is, you should really ask......it's a good story..... ;)
Saturday, July 14, 2007
How long, how long....
My dear blogging community
I'm sorry for my absence. And that terrible Chilli Peppers quote in the title of this post.
How do I even explain my absence? Really there is no way to explain it away, or any good excuse.
I am pleased to say that I am back now and will do my best to be better with keeping you posted.
Things here are really good, though insanely busy.
This is Jessa, Jana and I at the Celebration dinner at the end of Program 2, on thursday that just passed. It was two great programs, but I know we are all really really glad to be here, having 10 days off. We are heading to Whistler for 3 days for a staff retreat on Tuesday, should be an amazing time. I'm really excited, especially as I've never been to Whistler and Summer has finally started here in Vancouver now.
The Mission adventures summer program (www.mavancouver.blogspot.com) is now halfway through, and it's been a crazy ride. The program is basically set up here so we host youth groups here for 4 days of training, and then put them out into the city for 6 days of 'outreach', connecting with long term ministry centres and giving relief to long term workers, as well as being able to give them a new perspective on what city life is and what it means to be an urban missionary.
Speaking of urban missionary, for my friends here in Vancouver (in particular those of our bunch who reside near the Commercial and Lakewood area) Jessa, Jana and I partook (is that a word) in some excellent southern Chinese food at 12.30am! We babysat the Davenport kids tonight, and by 11.30pmish were on our way home, craving some food (after making the kids mickey mouse, heart, star and triangle shaped pancakes for supper) and so stopped randomly on Hastings at 'Penny's restaurant' for some late night eats.
This place was great, so much like the places I know I used to go to with my Mum when I was younger, and in true YWAM style, the food was great, the portions were big and the majority of the patrons and workers didn't speak English. When a place is full of people ordering stupidly large amounts of food in loud Cantonese at midnight, you know it's gotta be good. So you should go there. We're thinking of making that our local weekly outreach :)
And even though we didn't manage to take pictures of our yummy food (we had between the three of us: fried rice noodles with gai lan, potstickers and lo mein with beef brisket) we did of course (in Jana, Jessa, Hillary style) get lots and lots of seriously amusing arms length pictures of us carrying on in the restaurant. And the auntie who ran the place knew I was Chinese and started talking to me in Cantonese. That was fun.
See, we're having fun!
So anyways
Life has been busy here, and eventful with a lot of good fun and exciting changes and developments. It's going to be an awesome summer.
Has anyone reading this noticed I'm making the same face in pretty much ALL my pictures.
tehehe
Anyways.
Favourite romantic sappy film line in a film today?
The award goes to Sweet Home Alabama
"What do you wanna marry me for anyway?"
"So I can kiss you any time I want"
Sigh
shmoooooopie!
I'm sorry for my absence. And that terrible Chilli Peppers quote in the title of this post.
How do I even explain my absence? Really there is no way to explain it away, or any good excuse.
I am pleased to say that I am back now and will do my best to be better with keeping you posted.
Things here are really good, though insanely busy.
This is Jessa, Jana and I at the Celebration dinner at the end of Program 2, on thursday that just passed. It was two great programs, but I know we are all really really glad to be here, having 10 days off. We are heading to Whistler for 3 days for a staff retreat on Tuesday, should be an amazing time. I'm really excited, especially as I've never been to Whistler and Summer has finally started here in Vancouver now.The Mission adventures summer program (www.mavancouver.blogspot.com) is now halfway through, and it's been a crazy ride. The program is basically set up here so we host youth groups here for 4 days of training, and then put them out into the city for 6 days of 'outreach', connecting with long term ministry centres and giving relief to long term workers, as well as being able to give them a new perspective on what city life is and what it means to be an urban missionary.
Speaking of urban missionary, for my friends here in Vancouver (in particular those of our bunch who reside near the Commercial and Lakewood area) Jessa, Jana and I partook (is that a word) in some excellent southern Chinese food at 12.30am! We babysat the Davenport kids tonight, and by 11.30pmish were on our way home, craving some food (after making the kids mickey mouse, heart, star and triangle shaped pancakes for supper) and so stopped randomly on Hastings at 'Penny's restaurant' for some late night eats.
This place was great, so much like the places I know I used to go to with my Mum when I was younger, and in true YWAM style, the food was great, the portions were big and the majority of the patrons and workers didn't speak English. When a place is full of people ordering stupidly large amounts of food in loud Cantonese at midnight, you know it's gotta be good. So you should go there. We're thinking of making that our local weekly outreach :)
And even though we didn't manage to take pictures of our yummy food (we had between the three of us: fried rice noodles with gai lan, potstickers and lo mein with beef brisket) we did of course (in Jana, Jessa, Hillary style) get lots and lots of seriously amusing arms length pictures of us carrying on in the restaurant. And the auntie who ran the place knew I was Chinese and started talking to me in Cantonese. That was fun.
See, we're having fun!
So anyways
Life has been busy here, and eventful with a lot of good fun and exciting changes and developments. It's going to be an awesome summer.
Has anyone reading this noticed I'm making the same face in pretty much ALL my pictures.
tehehe
Anyways.
Favourite romantic sappy film line in a film today?
The award goes to Sweet Home Alabama
"What do you wanna marry me for anyway?"
"So I can kiss you any time I want"
Sigh
shmoooooopie!
Monday, June 11, 2007
So I'm back in Vancouver
Back in Vancouver.
I know it's been a while since I posted, well, for my standards at least, and certainly a while since I've posted anything of real substance.
Don't get your hopes up though, it's 11pm, after first day of Mission Adventures staff training and subsequent fried brain, and I'm sad to say I just thought I'd say hi and then go to bed.
And thought I'd post a pic of me, finally, back in Vancouver.
I miss you guys (as if I know who reads this, I know some of you, but yeah you know what I mean)
It's been one of those days.
hill
Friday, June 01, 2007
Goodbye Victoria....
It occurred to me, not too long ago, that since Christmas, I haven't been in Vancouver for more than 10 consecutive days. And it's now the 1st of June. How did that happen.
And yet, really, I don't think I'd have it any other way. It's been a good 6 months. The people, the places, the people, the food, the friends, the people, the work, the weather, the people......
24 hours from now, I'll be back in Vancouver, for at least the summer. A whole few months. Weeeeeodd (weird for those of you who speak regular english)
It's been a long month. Pretty tough in many ways, but at the same time it's been really really important. For lots of reasons.
But I'm looking forward to being home.
So I talked to a friend today about patience.
Patience I don't have, patience I need, patience I want, patience that I ask God for right now, for now, for here, for this, and realise then that I missed the point, because I want it now, and that just isn't how it works is it.
Sounds elementary huh
I fixed the DVD problem. Still some catch up to do while I'm in Vancouver, but all in all it's been a solid effort, and huge preparation for the summer.
The summer.......now that's a long story...
And yet, really, I don't think I'd have it any other way. It's been a good 6 months. The people, the places, the people, the food, the friends, the people, the work, the weather, the people......
24 hours from now, I'll be back in Vancouver, for at least the summer. A whole few months. Weeeeeodd (weird for those of you who speak regular english)
It's been a long month. Pretty tough in many ways, but at the same time it's been really really important. For lots of reasons.
But I'm looking forward to being home.
So I talked to a friend today about patience.
Patience I don't have, patience I need, patience I want, patience that I ask God for right now, for now, for here, for this, and realise then that I missed the point, because I want it now, and that just isn't how it works is it.
Sounds elementary huh
I fixed the DVD problem. Still some catch up to do while I'm in Vancouver, but all in all it's been a solid effort, and huge preparation for the summer.
The summer.......now that's a long story...
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Ugh, newbie mistakes
So I think I just threw up in my mouth a little bit.
I am hereby guilty of BWE, aka blogging while emotional. (thank you Jo for pioneering this little acronym)
I just discovered a total run of newbie mistakes I have been making for several days that have rendered several hours of work completely pointless and useless, and will now lead to several more hours of work.
For anyone in the slightest bit video inclined, who wants to hit me in the head with a soggy newspaper, my DVD authoring programme is from NZ and therefore set to write PAL, where all my footage is in NTSC. Also, more stupid yet, Premiere was saving everything in some made up foreign mpeg format that is ofcourse not mpeg2 compatible.
Result: after many hours I have some very jumpy out of sync DVDs.
Did you know that if you fold a DVD in half a couple of times it breaks into multi coloured, multi layered shards?
Sigh
Back to the drawing board
I am hereby guilty of BWE, aka blogging while emotional. (thank you Jo for pioneering this little acronym)
I just discovered a total run of newbie mistakes I have been making for several days that have rendered several hours of work completely pointless and useless, and will now lead to several more hours of work.
For anyone in the slightest bit video inclined, who wants to hit me in the head with a soggy newspaper, my DVD authoring programme is from NZ and therefore set to write PAL, where all my footage is in NTSC. Also, more stupid yet, Premiere was saving everything in some made up foreign mpeg format that is ofcourse not mpeg2 compatible.
Result: after many hours I have some very jumpy out of sync DVDs.
Did you know that if you fold a DVD in half a couple of times it breaks into multi coloured, multi layered shards?
Sigh
Back to the drawing board
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
My song of the day
For your listening pleasure.....
my favourite song today
"Shizuka na Hibi no Kadan Wo" by Dragon Ash
wish to the shooting star after the rain.....
my favourite song today
"Shizuka na Hibi no Kadan Wo" by Dragon Ash
wish to the shooting star after the rain.....
Sunday, May 27, 2007
So much to say....
So much to say, and no way to say it all.
So it's bullet points for today, pictures, then bed.
Will post more next time I render I guess.
Big love
Hillary
Mark and I at Chinatown
'Embracing' all that is Canadian, hugging a bear and kissing a cow-riding mountie. Can life get better? I submit that it cannot! ;)
What's Chinatown without Dimsum. For a 'meat and potatoes' guy he did pretty well. Yup, there are chicken feet there.....
That's what you get when you have two photographers and two cameras. Pictures of people taking pictures. Gee.
So it's bullet points for today, pictures, then bed.
- First off, my mate Mark came out to Victoria this weekend, soooo much fun, so good to have a friend to explore the city with. Pictures below.... :D
- I finally broke my bad picture streak and got two good rolls developed. YAY! hopefully will get some up on here sooner rather than later.
- I'm watching the Italian job, the new one with Mark and Charlize and Seth. good. very good.
- I'd like to have a Mini cooper. And drive with Handsome Rob ;)
- I only have one more week here before my mate Philip arrives on June 3rd, I get a week of leave and then it's all on for MA. woooo hooooo.
- You should read this story http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/4096586. It's really awesome.
Will post more next time I render I guess.
Big love
Hillary
Mark and I at Chinatown
'Embracing' all that is Canadian, hugging a bear and kissing a cow-riding mountie. Can life get better? I submit that it cannot! ;)
What's Chinatown without Dimsum. For a 'meat and potatoes' guy he did pretty well. Yup, there are chicken feet there.....
That's what you get when you have two photographers and two cameras. Pictures of people taking pictures. Gee.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Happy Birthday to me....
So I have amazing and wonderful friends and flatmates here in Vancouver who looked after me and loved me all weekend.
What a treat, and sooooo refreshing.
I will for sure blog later, but after this weekend of late nights and early mornings, I am going to try for some beauty sleep before the trip back tomorrow to Victoria.
So until I can give you the play by play from the last few days, here are some of the best of's from last night:
What a treat, and sooooo refreshing.
I will for sure blog later, but after this weekend of late nights and early mornings, I am going to try for some beauty sleep before the trip back tomorrow to Victoria.
So until I can give you the play by play from the last few days, here are some of the best of's from last night:
The roomies! Me, Reeeebeeee, and Jax
Henri and I, with our Sangria
Jax and I in our party dresses
Andy-Roo and his glamour glasses (stolen from a gorilla might I add!)
The gorgeous girls
My birthday cupcake a la Jacqui
Mark made me an icecream cake!!! yup he did!!!!
Adam and I are soooo cute
So I got tired of the dress, but kept the crown and beads.
We started playing 'Spoons' and every out means one glass of water. I got to 3....bleh
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