Sunshine and cookies

It was beautiful outside today, and fresh air made me breathe in deeply, warm and real.

It's been 8 days. Where does the time go.

I know it's been vague on this blog so far about all that has been going on in our lives, if you want to know more details, feel free to ask, for now I'm going to keep going exactly as is. If this frustrates you, you know where the little red 'x' is or how to use your 'back' button. If not feel free to keep reading.

Memories are a strange thing. Grief and memories together are even stranger.

Everything reminds you of something else, something you had, something you hoped for, and missing things becomes tangible, salty and stinging at the same time, like seawater when you get dumped on the beach by a rough wave. You dream of all the alternatives, all the possibilities, and it's easy to forget what was. Good and bad. Or maybe you just remember what you were supposed to?

We are having a dinner party with some dear friends in two weeks. We had been thinking for the last week or so what the theme of this party should be, and tonight I decided.

"Summer favourites"

We are going to get together and share food and stories and memories, and relish the joy that is now. Vancouver can be a bitingly lonely city, but today, it was sunshiny. And I baked really good cookies. Let me know if you want to come over and eat some. It should be sunny and warm out tomorrow....