So, welcome to the gong show that is my life.
The last two days have been hilarious. In a crying, panicked, kind of way of describing hilarious
You know.
Well ok you probably don't. Apparently when I am stressed or emo (emotional!) then I cope by being funny. Thus, when I am upset and try to confide in people, whom I have joked about the situation with, then they in turn joke with me thinking I don't care, and my feelings get hurt that they are laughing with me and not reading my mind and instantly understanding that i'm actually upset. Gong show indeed. But a good learning curve and a relationship builder for sure. I'm sorry if you know what I'm talking about right now, and I apologise. Though I already did that in person.
Sigh
Emo indeed. On the upside I have some really good soap, thanks to JahJireh family soapworks (aka good old YWAM enterprise!! If you need some soap I'll hook you up!)

So here's some food for thought. did an excercise in class last night, exploring the Father heart of God. The excercise started out to look at our names and the meaning of our names. Then after praying for a while and remembering back thinking of the names that we were called as kids. the hurtful painful names that stuck like burrs on our hearts, and weighted us down. We wrote them on sticky notes and stuck them on our shirts, then introduced ourselves to eachother using that name instead of our real name. It hurt, and there were a lot of tears as people realised what they had been carrying around with them. Then we pulled them off, and burned them. Then prayed, over night to ask God, our Father, for what HE calls us. What HIS name for us is. How HE sees us. I really really like my new name. Hillary isn't going anywhere, and I think for now, I'm just gonna meditate a bit more on this new name. But it's comforting that in the Gong show, God sees me. And He whispers to me. And He knows MY name.

So yeah, I think that a little emotional turmoil makes you stronger. Makes you hurt, but you know you are alive. And besides, things are actually, and objectively, going really well. Have attached a couple of pics below, and will make sure I have some fresh ones for the October newsletter. I love our students and I'm so excited for the next five months. I am also stoked to be going away this weekend with Jessa to visit my friend Layne on Vancouver Island. Blissful rest :) Aaaaand, tomorrow night we are all going as a school to Glenn and Lorrain's for a BBQ and then to a Vancouver Giants Hockey game. This is one of the teams that they draft the NHL from so it's gonna be awesome!!! plus Glen and Lorrain do AWESOME BBQ and BROWNIES!!!!

Anyways, it's bedtime, need to be at work for the homeless breakfast ministry at 6.30 so will love you and leave you with my pics of the day.

Will post something that is hopefully much lighter and cheerier sooner rather than later. With love and emo
Hill



Introducing the Small Group Dream team!
My girls, left to right, Rene, Aubrey and Laura. She really is that tall!




Welcome to Lecture break, 15 minutes of stretching and Goldfish eating!
left to right: Robert, Crystal, Rene, Aubrey, Jamie, Jenn, and my other two lovely co-staffers Jessa and Laura